An Obvious Statement

My love for these children knows no bounds.

North South East West Here Now

Once in a while I get this feeling like I've already lived this part of life and I'm just grasping for it somewhere deep back in my memory. My kids are grown and I'm old and gray. God willing. Mostly I think this way when I'm considering where we're at right now. This house, this town, this stage of life. It's all just a marker along a time line. I think of the past nine years Jason and I have been together, the six since we moved to St. Johnsbury, the three and a half since Tessa's been born and the just over seven months since our little man has arrived. I think that all this has happened in less than a third of my life.. so far. But before that even... all my childhood moves. All the births and deaths in the family. All the holidays and trips and pets. I want to examine it all. I want to grab it and keep in under glass. I want to really remember it the way you never can. Then I realize, or wonder at really, that I'm not just that past person. That there's this whole long future ahead of me that will pass, or has passed, that I can't begin to imagine. That I'm actualizing this life right now day by day and it's no longer just mine. Maybe it never was. As much as my children's lives are my own I am my parents and they are their's and so on. There is my eternity. There is my soul... in every direction.

Intergalactic Family

So here we are all from our own individual cellular cosmos where we collected ourselves in the deep space that is the galaxy of our mother's wombs. We're here now in the warm thriving planet of our home, making sense of strangeness, of this unknown and mysterious thing we call life. Whether space explorer or wandering alien we're bound together touching the ultimate of beautiful as shared experience; learning to watch the moonrise with the collective eye of family.